Let me slash the words across the page
Say what you will - I won't change
Who I am is who I'll be
And I can't take it anymore

Feeling down, rarely up
Living within shadows watching others in light
Pain builds within, no release
Fearing only myself and what I'm capable of

Don't tell me what to think, what to do
I may not understand right now
Perhaps one day I will
But, whatever you do, don't presume to know

Deep inside me, I can't control
It over powers me, leaves me weak
Not sure how much more I can take
Knowing all my life it will always be

All alone, nowhere to go, nowhere to turn
What happened to those I knew?
Use to have a reason to stay, to believe
Now I wonder what's the point?

Certain thoughts arise, scare me with their intensity
Can't seem to shake the honest belief in them
And it kills me to feel like this
But I don't know what to do

I see these scars, I feel them too
No one knows their true depth
Nothing scares me more than knowing it doesn't matter
Still I'm left alone, with nothing but this pain

Hate to feel as I do
No reason can be found to back it up
But it doesn't change it, rearrange it
It's always there, locked up deep inside

Maybe, one day I'll find out why
...Who says I'll be there when the time is right?
It won't be that much to walk away, to say goodbye
Because it's down to this: I can't take it.